There are many uses for lists and then it occurred to me during an esoteric workshop that if I can write a master list for my life, then why not a new lover?
In this workshop we are doing something like writing a list but mostly we were creating a sculpture while tapping into the minds eye about what we wanted in a dream lover. As all the participants in the class were women, as one might suspect, it was a class for conjuring up a man!
So there I was in this class with well known Astrologer, Marva Mason, teaching us about how to draw in to us what we each wanted in a man and how after the next full moon, or when our clay sculpture dissolved after we took him home and placed him in a bowl of water, our dream man would enter our lives.
So my man was sculpted, lounging as if looking into the stars wondering where I was. He was lying on his back with his arms folded and hands behind his head gazing upward. This long and sexy legs were crossed in a leisurely way. He was only wearing jeans and was built (again in my minds eye as I do not possess sculpting techniques) in a way that could handle any physical feat thrown his way. Then we had to carve words into our Prince Charming that reflected his qualities, the qualities we desired for our lover to have. I don't recall the qualities for my Adonis but I do recall getting it and from there I decided to make a list for my ideal partner.
A month later, my man had dissolved in a bowl of water and my list was drafted! Four typed pages! Single spaced; one-liners. I listed everything I could imagine that I wanted in a partner. I was very detailed on a few topics and wrote a paragraph on those topics that meant most to me at the tie. I felt with complete certainty that the man I wrote about was coming into my life. Guess what, he did! Within 3-4 months, I had met my dream man for the first time and another month or so later, we connected and ultimately united. It wasn't until later that I recalled my list I had put away and decided to go to read it, you know, just for grins and giggles.
Upon reading my list I became a believer. I wrote the type of jeans my man would wear, the color of his hair, his eyes, everything physical was in place. I wrote about his family and how he interacted with them. The fact he had children but they were grown, no longer living with him. What he liked to do for fun, his hobbies and so forth... This man as far as I could see was the very man I conjured up. I fell completely under the spell I created and so did he. Sure enough, the deal was sealed, I received my gift from the Universe!
Upon our demise, I couldn't understand what could have possibly when wrong for us so I read the list again. Let's just say you must be very specific with your list as the Universe has an amazing sense of humor and will bring about exactly what you ask for, to the iota, as in my case. I learned that I included some ambiguous language.
It took some soul searching before I would draft another list but I did and guess what? The very same thing happened. I created a shorter, more simplistic list and a more simplistic person entered my life and there was peace and harmony once more. It was clear that I was completely in love with life until I wanted more. More was not in the cards but I didn't specify that "more" had to be. Again, my list, presented exactly what I asked for and it was amazing. I learned yet another lesson about writing lists for love.
After more reflection I realized that I had even dreamed a lover before and it had come to fruition and the more I thought about it, the more I realized I was bringing about what I thought about. So I continued this practice.
The next list after much self-discovery brought another individual in my life. Who the hell needs to do online dating (which is another story all together) when all you have to do is get a pad and pen and go to brainstorming? Well, once more, and this time, I added a time frame and a final outcome. Sure enough. I didn't even have to go out, date or anything, He came to me. We had been acquainted but didn't know one another's status nor did we really see one another in the light that all of the sudden was now apparent. It was absolutely crazy! This happened fast and just the way I had drafted it to be. I wrote 100 items on a list. Some of these were shades of another and there were some things that were more important than others but 100 items and this man met the 95% mark of my dream man so he must be the one, right? Well, what was the harm in the previous list of one-liners anyway, right? We married 10/10/2010, which was my intended outcome (at least the intended outcome was to be married by the end of 2010 which was a challenge as it was already Spring when I did my list and I had yet to even meet or date my new man as of yet) and it was fast and furiously fun! Seems the list really does work! And it did but again we failed. There was one vital element that I always overlooked on my list that I couldn't possibly live without. The thing was I wasn't sure what it was exactly.
Vowing not to create another list until I knew what I had been missing, I had met with a girl-friend over dinner one night. She had been using my suggestions of a list and found her partner and was never more in love and I knew her partner first hand as he was a dear friend of mine that I had so much love and admiration. In our talk, she mentioned "feeling". She had to explain to be briefly her experience and suddenly, I understood.
Feeling... Imagine that! Yes! That was the missing element...
“Some people are settling down, some people are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies.”
I gave this a great deal of thought and considered one additional aspect that was a take away from two other influences in my life; Crazy Mama from the Crazy Mama Celestial Emporium and my long term relationship councilor that claimed there was nothing wrong with me and I was not to return until I had a real problem to discuss, This take away is an additional element, along with the feeling aspect, that has generated almost immediate results for myself and many others since with significant and powerful change in matters of the heart.
What I learned from my "experiments" was that I was looking for the qualities, values and morals that I possessed. I wanted a like-minded individual or at least someone that I could be-friend and trust. Someone that "got" me. Someone accepting of me, mi vida loca and would enjoy embracing life in the same what that I did and wanted to continue doing. I was listing for love but leaving out the "love" part of the list. The part that gave the heart and soul the fuel to make it last. Yet, I did know that once I did find what I ultimately wanted and needed, it would be ever-lasting. Maybe, I just wasn't ready yet.
To learn about those aspects, see my follow up posting on THE LIST.
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