Late 2014, when gas prices started to fall and a merger of the number two and three energy services companies was announced in the headlines; I realized, ready or not, my days were numbered. I wasn't exactly financially ready but I was going to be okay. I was; however, more than ready to get on with my life and do something different. I really didn't know what I would or could do but I did feel confident that in no time at all I would figure it out.
Somehow, I just knew the very morning as I dressed that I was not going to have a job by the end of that day and chose my outfit as if it was the last time I would get dressed for work, in the traditional sense. My gut feeling was dead on.
My number was called only moments after arriving to my cube. I hadn't even sat down and my phone was ringing. I got the call! I asked to be put on the list but truth be known, I WAS on the LIST! Although I did run to the Human Resource department as fast as I could, hugging everyone I saw along the way and cheerfully waving goodbye to anyone I passed as I was escorted off the property, my knees were shaking uncontrollably. This was it... my freedom!
After a couple of decades in the corporate world and seriously looking for a way out, I took some time to do some soul searching. After all, I manifested a working life that I felt I really wanted so why could I not manifest something more enjoyable and pleasurable for myself?
I had planned to do a few things that I would not otherwise have been able to do. These few things were very important to me and I needed about three total months of down time for them. I had no idea how I could afford to take the time off as a single parent of a young child, let alone care for another during the process. All of the sudden, without truly knowing how I could do it, everything fell perfectly into place starting with the lay off. The timing could not have been more perfect and I was also afforded the best of the best and that was to spend one full summer with my little one before she was too grown to want to spend it with me.
I wanted to remember this time forever so I bought myself a necklace from James Avery. It's a symbol of my choice and manifestations; a heart with wings - my freedom wings! I wear it always.
So, when I said everything fell perfectly into place, I didn't actually realize all the energies that had appeared to make my dream a reality. Only in hindsight is this now evident. The right people came into my world and participated in my production. Income in the amount that I needed was provided. All the "important to me" things I wanted to do for my big five-oh magically arranged themselves for my pleasure. I couldn't have dreamed it better. I am most grateful for each and every aspect and how perfect my world had been. And then, my time was up. Poof!
Just like I said it would happen... On such and such day, my self-imposed deadline had arrived. I was a little closer to figuring out what I wanted to do for income to support us but had not yet taken the actions required.
I have been through some amazing tests since. I know with all certainty that I do not want to work a traditional job and work a traditional schedule and live a traditional life. It's not me, not my calling. In my dire need to locate income, I applied for 1001 jobs that I did not want. My back went out making it impossible for me to continue my on-line campaign for work. The only responses that I received for employment were for part-time gigs with low pay that would not lend to supporting us and were not in alignment with my dream work life. I did accept a commission only sales position that felt in alignment with my over all goal; however. It's all up to me to make my day. Make my life what I want it to be.
After spending the last of my savings helping two forces in my life, not knowing where my next meal would come, I eradicated these people from my world, cutting them out entirely while understanding their true role. The truth is I had to be hardened a little bit so that I could accept pay for my efforts. As they took from me, I lost my personal power. I gave it away. I left myself in a harmful position for another. I not only left myself in a vulnerable state but I risked my ability to support my child and maintain my own property. I needed to be backed into a corner so that I would come out fighting for what mattered. What mattered then and now is my ability to call my shots and make a living for myself and my child. What mattered is that I no longer accept being devalued and taken for granted by those that do not have my best interest in mind.
Even in my trials, I managed to do my best with following my heart as it was breaking into pieces. I have not given up on my dreams nor have I detoured. I simply have not yet found a way to make my dreams fund my lifestyle and support us but I do have an enormous amount of faith.
I wanted to remember this time forever so I bought myself a necklace from James Avery. It's a symbol of my choice and manifestations; a heart with wings - my freedom wings! I wear it always.
So, when I said everything fell perfectly into place, I didn't actually realize all the energies that had appeared to make my dream a reality. Only in hindsight is this now evident. The right people came into my world and participated in my production. Income in the amount that I needed was provided. All the "important to me" things I wanted to do for my big five-oh magically arranged themselves for my pleasure. I couldn't have dreamed it better. I am most grateful for each and every aspect and how perfect my world had been. And then, my time was up. Poof!
Just like I said it would happen... On such and such day, my self-imposed deadline had arrived. I was a little closer to figuring out what I wanted to do for income to support us but had not yet taken the actions required.
I have been through some amazing tests since. I know with all certainty that I do not want to work a traditional job and work a traditional schedule and live a traditional life. It's not me, not my calling. In my dire need to locate income, I applied for 1001 jobs that I did not want. My back went out making it impossible for me to continue my on-line campaign for work. The only responses that I received for employment were for part-time gigs with low pay that would not lend to supporting us and were not in alignment with my dream work life. I did accept a commission only sales position that felt in alignment with my over all goal; however. It's all up to me to make my day. Make my life what I want it to be.
After spending the last of my savings helping two forces in my life, not knowing where my next meal would come, I eradicated these people from my world, cutting them out entirely while understanding their true role. The truth is I had to be hardened a little bit so that I could accept pay for my efforts. As they took from me, I lost my personal power. I gave it away. I left myself in a harmful position for another. I not only left myself in a vulnerable state but I risked my ability to support my child and maintain my own property. I needed to be backed into a corner so that I would come out fighting for what mattered. What mattered then and now is my ability to call my shots and make a living for myself and my child. What mattered is that I no longer accept being devalued and taken for granted by those that do not have my best interest in mind.
Even in my trials, I managed to do my best with following my heart as it was breaking into pieces. I have not given up on my dreams nor have I detoured. I simply have not yet found a way to make my dreams fund my lifestyle and support us but I do have an enormous amount of faith.
It's not the norm to always know what you want and how to do it so being gentle with ourselves during such times is key. Spending time in contemplation or solitude can bring about creative answers, inspirations and guidance. Having unwavering belief in all that is possible, remaining focused and staying the course no matter the distraction, all with a gratuitous presence brings about magnificent possibilities and manifests our dreams. This, I BELIEVE! So here's to FREEDOM WINGS!
Cheers!
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